​Goodbye, love

I think I understand now.

Not because I finally looked deeper,
Because I didn’t,
But because I finally understand
That my version of love was never your vision.

I miss your tender touches,
The late nights we stayed up and just
Talked.

I miss your laughter and your joy,
I miss your face and passion,
But I’ve started to forget.

My brain no longer conjures up
Your face as clearly,
The lines that once eclipsed your mouth
As you smiled have become blurry.

I don’t remember the heat
You used to ignite in my stomach
Or my heart,
I only know It was there because
Of the fallacy of the human mind.

I know now why I never truly loved you,
It wasn’t because of my preconceived
Ideals or morals,
But because you were not the person
For me.

My mind could never flourish alongside yours
It was always caught in the webs
Of your moral consciousness,
Always yearning to do more
But yet still held back to be less.

You didn’t love me,
You possessed me.
You were cruel and charming
Loving, yet malicious.

And even though I had believed the notion
Of your ability to truly love,
I never understood that
Maybe your love, was never meant to be mine.