​Exhausted

Woke up exhausted again as if sleeping would actually help. Emotional exhaustion feels like walking through honey on a cold day sure you’ll eventually get to the end, however, dont rush you might get stuck even more but also, dont take to much time standing still will make you sink, all while you battle off the rest of the world. The world’s emotions dont get me started. How do you explain being an empath? It’s like being in a crowded room everyone is yelling screaming every emotion flowing through there mouths like water filling the room drowning you slowly until you hold your breath and open the door. Walking away makes me feel rude that make me feel worse as if me leaving will make you hate me for not controlling your emotions.its exhausting how do you sleep off the world. Sometimes I wish there was just this warm light i could hug that could hold on to it all for me sometimes I need peace. I’m so exhausted im numb you would think that would feel nice it doesn’t. To me it feels like floating in nothingness endless nothingness for someone that feels so deep the oceans would blush nothingness is scary. I dont see people the same as I used to like the roles reversed im no longer putting my masks on but no one around me have taken there’s off and there gross falling apart cracks show up with ever lie and black goo leaks out with every harsh word, there words like bullets riding my soul apart peace by peace. Like I said im exhausted. It’s like with every wall that I knock down, overcome, rebuild the more I see the world for exactly what it is and its exhausting.