​Quiet

I live my life,
Exactly the way you’d never approve of
I run through the chaos of the bass,
And the chatter of the endless thoughts inside.

My body is now allowed to react,
To experience freedom
And the once fleeting memories of your touch,
Are now just a sordid nightmare.

But no matter,
Once the chaos subsides
And my mind is surrounded by the quiet,
I collapse.

I let the chasm swallow me whole,
I allow the tears to trail a path down my face,
And I wonder why I ever
Allowed myself to begin at all.