​Ageless (poem)

It’s been a coming of the ages and lord I just feel ageless

Sick of all these assumptions, assignments and pages

Last time up at that camp to teach the next generation how to lead

And I’m going up punch drunk, drunk and in a hoodie covered in my lover’s bleed

The pines cresting on the horizon, 3:03, words meant the most to me but she’s home

Long home, couldn’t possibly have peeled herself off me slower and now I’m alone

I became a man the other day

At least that’s what they say

Two bodies uniting as one, going like they won’t see the sun until their done

Pines cresting, life breasting, flowers blooming, I’ve stopped looming for fun

I found what makes me happy

All the shit that I said when I was fucked up was true but just too sappy

But I found a lady, strong and kind, smile so wide, making me lovesick and homesick

But home feels like it’s with her where I can be me and not be that much of a prick

My friends, like brothers, coming and going like bands on tour or mile markers on highways

No matter where I go or who I am, they’re by my side and stay

The family says their proud of me and I can’t explain why

But if the rest of life is this easy, then fuck I hope she’s with me till i die

And the kids, man those kids, whole futures ahead of them

I may be four years older but I’m six months sober and stopped shaking in the den

They’ll learn just like me, strength, confidence, vulnerability in due time

I can’t tell them more than I know but I feel like what I know’s enough cause I’ve lived a life sublime

To this point, I’ve struggled, I’ve overcame, I’ve stopped saying words in vain

I caught myself from my silver tongue saying something black cause i’s in pain

The fights I’ve fought, the love I’ve loved, and the memories I can remember

It’s all there from when I was six and will be there until forever

Like fighting that mean mean bully on that old school playground in grade 5

Or going through Covid when we were 12 and thought we wouldn’t make it out alive

Or when I thought I had a good one but she said we were done before I took her to dinner

Like that team we thought would go all the way but it stopped before we could call ourselves winners

So I guess I may just have a story or two for these little fuckers that I can tell

Something about someone somewhere in a situation and working to overcome that spell

Talking about how it’s been a coming of the ages and lord I just feel ageless

Sick of all these assumptions, assignments and pages

Last time up at that camp to teach the next generation how to lead

And I’m going up punch drunk, nostalgic and in a hoodie covered in my fuckin creed