​”let me be selfish”

I’m a crybaby. I cry over silly things. A little shouting makes my eyes fill with tears.

My eyes rain when it gets heavy inside, when it’s hard to hold everything in.

I judge myself so many times I’ve lost count. When I come to you, don’t judge. Don’t leave. Don’t ignore me.

I know my faults — but don’t remind me. Hearing it from you cuts deeper than you think.

When I come to you crying, just hold me. Don’t ask why. Don’t blame. Don’t fix it. Just stay. Just say, “I’m here.”

Even if you can’t say that — just stay. Be still with me.

Let me pick up the fallen parts of me. There are wounds I carry that haven’t healed yet. I just want you to be patient while I bleed.

Be there for me — in the anger, in the silence, when I feel like nothing, and have nothing to give.

Be there — through ugly cries, sleepless nights, the emptiness, the quiet breakdowns.

Be there — until I feel like me again. Be the place I run to when the world forgets me. Be the one who stays even when I don’t know how to ask you to.

Be my peace when the world within me is full of chaos.

Am I selfish for needing so much? Then let me be selfish.

Just this once.