​When Silence Feels Safer

A million words,
a thousand different ways
just to speak to you.

But after a certain point,
too many explanations
stop sounding honest
and start sounding like begging.

And that was never
what this was supposed to become.

Not something built
on the need to be acknowledged.

Not something that had to plead
just to be seen.

So slowly,
something began to give out.

Not the feeling for you,
but the belief in myself.

The doubts grew louder.
The fears became easier to listen to
than anything else.

And after a while,
it felt simpler
to push everything away
than to keep fighting
the insecurities and anger
that had rooted themselves inside me.

Because sometimes,
the hardest thing to face
isn’t rejection from another person,

it’s the voice within
that convinces you
you were never enough to begin with.

And in the end,

it almost felt easier
to accept a life
where I could never let someone in
than to risk discovering
whether I truly could.